It's not anything Steven doing that I'm worried about!
I'm worry about what I'd do in front of Steven. Y'know, my boss, whom writes thy paychecks. I have an image to uphold... like, a professional one. Ugh. I sound like my mom again.
Look, I'm not in the mood to whip my crime dong out for a size competition. It's not about the size, it's about the crimes- and how much I don't give a fuck, dude. All I care about right now is I still feel vaguely like the other woman, which is hella weird.
I'm rolling with it like a clunker fresh out the scrapyard.
[Which means she... is. Sort of.]
I'm starting to like you a hell of a lot, so all I'm sayin' is it's gonna suck if... I dunno. If it doesn't work out, or it's weird, or. What the fuck ever that could go wrong, because for me it usually does, y'know?
[The words kind of just come out, and fuck it she's awake now and she's sitting up, clutching the gear and trying to keep her voice steady, even though it frustratingly wants to break.]
It's gonna suck, because I get caught up in it and forget you're taken and I'm the third wheel. And then I remember it. And I'm scared to get my hopes up about it, because when it goes to shit I'll just be alone. Again. Just like I always am. And- and I dunno if I could handle that, because I'm not even over my ex and here I am puppy-dogging over you and- and I'm just really fucking fragile, okay?
[Oh, that's far more sobering than she expected and she's quiet for the longest moment. Luckily the light snoring of Lilith in the background keeps it from being totally silent.]
And I get that, I really do. But I wouldn't have gone this far if I knew it wasn't gonna work out. Like, yeah, I'm going to marry her but that doesn't mean I didn't slam head first into feelings here, too. Hell, if it's legal I'd shove a ring on you both in time.
Just calm down, I know this is going to work. I know what she likes and this is going to be a great match for all of us, 'kay?
[God, she's already feeling a bit stupid for having such a cascade emotional bullshit flow out of her like that. She must sound so dumb, but she can't help it. She's been stewing on a lot for a while with no idea how to even deal.
In a way, she's coped with a ton by throwing herself into work and trying not to think about Anna, but now she's getting to a point where she has to face that. It's rough.]
Sorry... I didn't mean to go off like that, I just... have a lot on my mind sometimes. I'm glad you have so much faith in this, even if I'm paranoid as fuck.
[Hey, she's been there. She's been through way too much shit in regards to relationships to not get where she's coming from.]
Don't gotta apologize, sometimes you need to get it out and I get it. When I got a feeling in my gut, it's never been wrong, only reason I'm so sure about this.
But seriously, I do adore you outside of your looks and stuff, you know that, right? This ain't just some booty call sitch.
[Chloe thwumps back onto her pillow, letting the gear rest next to her head as she stares up at the ceiling. Man, who knew expressing feelings could both be so stressful, liberating and embarrassing all at once. Not to mention exhausting.
Chloe lets out a groan when Jolyne says that last part, whacking the gear again.]
Shut up, I know that. I mean, you obviously have to like me a little if I'm getting ass o'clock tits, right?
...Anyway. Thanks. For real. If I had to deal with me, I'd probably be halfway to Lavender town with how hard I'd go ghost, but somehow you're sticking around. Even when I vomit all over you emotionally.
[A huuuuuge fucking mood, emotions are weird and she still struggles with them.
But, god, she can't help but laugh a bit.]
Ass o'clock tits are a sign of affection, yeah~
And you shhhh, I've done the same shit so I totally get it. Like, it's kinda nice to have someone who gets that shit. Carly's a saint but it ain't the same, if that makes sense?
[Chloe laughs when Jolyne does, feeling that weight lift off even more. Jolyne obviously isn't holding it against her, so why should she dwell on it for too long? She can save that for her next bong rip, right now she'll let herself relax.]
Mmm, yeah. I get that. Anna was... well, I mean she was hella ferocious, but she didn't have a bad bone in her whole body. I'm still not convinced she wasn't actually made of cake.
Mm. She sounds like a hell of a person. [Makes sense why she would have been attached. But this place had a habit of taking people, she knew that.]
It's funny, Carly is super sweet if doesn't come off a little dense. But smart as hell and can hold her own if needed. Taught her to punch shit properly and she's kinda terrifying now, honestly. [She sounds far too fond, oops.]
[Chloe finds herself smiling as Jolyne describes Carly and honestly, she can't help but compare and think how the two of them sound a lot alike. Not in a creepy replacement way, but someone Chloe could genuinely vibe with.]
If you don't teach your girlfriend how to punch properly, are you even a good fuckin' girlfriend?
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I'm worry about what I'd do in front of Steven. Y'know, my boss, whom writes thy paychecks. I have an image to uphold... like, a professional one. Ugh. I sound like my mom again.
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But you oughta know I make no promises as I seem to just attract trouble somehow`
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But I guuuuuess. ... Dunno what to call us yet, either. That'll be solved soon at least? Hopefully. God.
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That's fair, but I can guaran-fucking-tee that ain't gonna be the case soon. Just roll with it, babe.
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[Which means she... is. Sort of.]
I'm starting to like you a hell of a lot, so all I'm sayin' is it's gonna suck if... I dunno. If it doesn't work out, or it's weird, or. What the fuck ever that could go wrong, because for me it usually does, y'know?
[The words kind of just come out, and fuck it she's awake now and she's sitting up, clutching the gear and trying to keep her voice steady, even though it frustratingly wants to break.]
It's gonna suck, because I get caught up in it and forget you're taken and I'm the third wheel. And then I remember it. And I'm scared to get my hopes up about it, because when it goes to shit I'll just be alone. Again. Just like I always am. And- and I dunno if I could handle that, because I'm not even over my ex and here I am puppy-dogging over you and- and I'm just really fucking fragile, okay?
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And I get that, I really do. But I wouldn't have gone this far if I knew it wasn't gonna work out. Like, yeah, I'm going to marry her but that doesn't mean I didn't slam head first into feelings here, too. Hell, if it's legal I'd shove a ring on you both in time.
Just calm down, I know this is going to work. I know what she likes and this is going to be a great match for all of us, 'kay?
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In a way, she's coped with a ton by throwing herself into work and trying not to think about Anna, but now she's getting to a point where she has to face that. It's rough.]
Sorry... I didn't mean to go off like that, I just... have a lot on my mind sometimes. I'm glad you have so much faith in this, even if I'm paranoid as fuck.
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Don't gotta apologize, sometimes you need to get it out and I get it. When I got a feeling in my gut, it's never been wrong, only reason I'm so sure about this.
But seriously, I do adore you outside of your looks and stuff, you know that, right? This ain't just some booty call sitch.
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Chloe lets out a groan when Jolyne says that last part, whacking the gear again.]
Shut up, I know that. I mean, you obviously have to like me a little if I'm getting ass o'clock tits, right?
...Anyway. Thanks. For real. If I had to deal with me, I'd probably be halfway to Lavender town with how hard I'd go ghost, but somehow you're sticking around. Even when I vomit all over you emotionally.
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But, god, she can't help but laugh a bit.]
Ass o'clock tits are a sign of affection, yeah~
And you shhhh, I've done the same shit so I totally get it. Like, it's kinda nice to have someone who gets that shit. Carly's a saint but it ain't the same, if that makes sense?
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Mmm, yeah. I get that. Anna was... well, I mean she was hella ferocious, but she didn't have a bad bone in her whole body. I'm still not convinced she wasn't actually made of cake.
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It's funny, Carly is super sweet if doesn't come off a little dense. But smart as hell and can hold her own if needed. Taught her to punch shit properly and she's kinda terrifying now, honestly. [She sounds far too fond, oops.]
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If you don't teach your girlfriend how to punch properly, are you even a good fuckin' girlfriend?
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As someone that fuckin street brawls, a shitty one! Picked up on it pretty damn quick, 10/10 was hot as fuck and I'd let her beat me up.
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[She's never been one to think getting beat up is hot, but whatever boats your float.]
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You can't tell me you ain't ever thought about it. Or, like, getting stepped on by a domineering chick in boots or heels.
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